DAMN. It’s been awhile my friends. I’ve struggled with the mentality of keep your head in the game. You could say I’ve been busy, which I always am. Or you could say I have been unmotivated and letting my self doubt take over. Which is more of the truth. I’ve been really hard on myself these last few months. I am no where near where I wanted to be at the end of the year with my business, my brand and my lifestyle. “Did you actually think you could do this?” Has been on replay in my head. There is so much truth in the statement, we are our biggest critics. And I have been a bad one lately. Normally I can use that doubt as motivation, but I just haven’t been finding it.
If you follow me on social media, you’ve probably caught me posting more about eating healthy and starting an exercise plan. Something that is pretty foreign to me. I’ve always been a bigger girl. I spent countless hours crying over my size and being unhappy about my weight. The weird thing is, I definitely don’t look what I weigh. It took some time but I finally love my body for just the way it is. This lifestyle change isn’t about losing weight and feeling comfortable in my own body. It’s about so much more than that.
Halloween. A time of year where people celebrate the spooky, dress up in costume and eat lots of candy. It brings out the kid in all of us. We get to play pretend and enjoy the simple things in life. Some of us enjoy the spooky and scary more than others. Halloween used to be this way for me. I used to look forward to the dark spirited fun every year. Now I dread this day. Halloween took on a whole new role in my life in 2008.
This time of year always has me reflecting. What have I accomplished this year? What else do I want to accomplish before the end of the year? Am I happy with where I am in life? What changes do I need to make? I started at the basics and have been thinking about the most important lessons I’ve learned in life that I’ve had to remind myself of this year. These lessons make up who I am and drive most of my decision making. These are the root of everything.
I AM a Warrior. Nobody is born a warrior. You choose to be one when you refuse to stay seated. You choose to be one when you refuse to back down. You choose to be one when you stand up after getting knocked down. Today, I am choosing to be a warrior. I need to be a warrior for myself and for my little girl. Every day I go to war. I fight a battle against who I desire to be and who the voices in my head tell me I am. The voices in my head tell me I’m not good enough. They tell me that success and happiness the way I want it are not in the cards for me. Those voices tell me I will be stuck in the same spot, fighting to get out, the rest of my life.
Fall is by far my favorite season throughout the whole yet. The weather is perfect (unless you live in Iowa and its over 90 on the first official day of fall). Leaves are changing and falling and it makes for the most beautiful scenery. Fall also brings about a sense of letting go and embracing change for me. The fall months are usually when I do the most growing personally. I start nesting and focus on having a few months left to crush my goals for the year. Just like every basic witch, I have a list of things I want to do during the fall season. Since we hit the first official day of fall last week, I started working on my list! This weekend we went to the apple orchard with some friends and had a BLAST! But there are still plenty of…
The Universe has your back. What does that mean? It has almost been a year since I started my manifestation journey and connecting with the Universe. I had never heard of manifesting the things you want and that everything is just energy and vibrations. When I first heard someone talking about it, I thought it was a little woo woo witch crafty. The more I looked into it though, the more legit it became and I learned these people really aren’t that crazy. I’ve had a hard time getting the hang of it though. Lots of times I’m not specific enough or carry too much doubt. But there has been lots of ways I’ve seen the Universe provide.
What do I hope for my future? What do I want in life? I’ve been asking myself these questions lately and trying to dive deep into what it really is that I want from life. Setting specific intentions and preparing to manifest some really big things. You can’t ask for or get what you want if you don’t know what it is.
When you believe in miracles, miracles are what you get. When you truly believe in yourself and the life you desire to live, crazy shit can happen. I’m trying to manifest some big things into my life so I’ve been going back to the basics. I’ve recently been going through one of my favorite books again, How to Get Everything You Ever Wanted, Complete Guide to Using Your Psychic Common Sense. Every time I read this book it gets better. If you are wanting to do some big things with your life, you need to read this book. I first read this book back when I started Moonlight Meraki and I am certain that venture wouldn’t be where it is today without it.What I am about to share with you all is the root of manifesting your desires and truly living a fulfilled life. So…
Fear. There aren’t too many things I fear in this world. But one of the biggest things I fear is confrontation. I will do anything I can to prevent myself from running into someone or something I have beef with just so I don’t have to confront an uncomfortable situations. I’m about to face one of my fears and possibly place myself in an uncomfortable situation, because it needs to happen. I cannot continue to let this hang over my head and I will not let it stop me from freely living my life how I want to. My anxiety is at an all time high thinking about how this could all play out. But I am trusting in the Universe to protect me and my energies and I step completely out of my comfort zone.